CRUSH CRUSH CRUSH (the 27 things I've experienced so far)

1. How come you have enough time to go out and make other girls fall in love with you, but you don't have enough time to pay attention to the girl who already is?

2. You really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it.

3. Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea what so ever.

4. The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them.

4. I love him but I cannot show it, want him but he cannot know it, need him but I know it'll never be, if only he needed me.

5. I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi to me, or even smile, because I know even if just for a second, I crossed your mind.

6. I wonder, what I could Do or say to make him like me. I wonder, what or who I need to be, to be his. I wonder, when just being me will be enough.

7. Should I smile cause were friends, or should I cry cause that's all well ever gonna be.

8. I look at him as a friend, then I realized I loved him.

9. We are afraid to care to much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.

10. You don't know what you mean to me, you don't have a clue, you can't tell by looking at me what I feel for you.

11. Sometimes I wonder what you think of me or if you do at all.

12. Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.

13. I wonder if you think of me half as much as I think about you.

14. You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore.

15. When he's around, my whole body knows it. I'll keep talking and stuff, but my mind will have no idea what I'm saying, I keep wondering if there's a term for this.

16. Rule #1 never tell a guy that you like them because then they will immediately stop liking you so DON'T DO IT!

17. You cannot always wait for the perfect time, sometimes you must dare to jump.

18. All I'm asking for is one night together. Just you and me. All alone. And if you can honestly say you don't feel anything for me after that night, I will finally let you go.

19. It's weird how sometimes things just have to happen to see how you actually feel about
someone.

20. For someone who is suppose to be "just friends" why do I always get butterflies in my stomach when you smile at me.

21. Sometimes I look at you... and you seem to be looking back at me... but sometimes you look away... like you're afraid of what might happen if you look a second longer.

22. I never regretted telling you I liked you, I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me.

23. I can sit here with you forever. I don't need to touch you. I don't need to hear your voice. I don't even have to look at you. As long as I know that you're here besides me. If I can smell your scent that I've grown to adore more then that of roses, hear you breathe feel your warmth permuting the air around me, I'll be fine.

24. The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of because words diminish your feelings - words shrink things that seem timeless when they are in your head to no more than living size when they are brought out.

25. I play the same song, over and over cause it reminds me of you. (i know it sounds petty, but the songs were 'i wished you loved me' and 'diagnosed with love'. i just hate how i would change so drastically when i truly like someone)

26. I want to be the girl who makes your bad days better, and the one that makes you say "my life has changed since I met her".

27. And she ignores all the other guys who want her, because she's too busy noticing him.

And i wonder who's gonna be the next guy to make me feel all those feelings again. I hope there's not gonna be any next time. Crushes are painful to be dealt with.

You hurt me many times before, and i cant remember myself not being emotional when i come across the songs which remind me of you in my lappy. A friend said that maybe i'm still not over you. I AM over you but i prefer not to forget these memories. They taught me some lessons. Be happy with your girl, dude. She deserves you more than I do.


I'm waiting. still waiting.