SZCHIZOPHRENIA remix

Yeah, heard about sum1 with a 'dwi personaliti?'

yeah....

I think I'm one of them, although I'm not that disordered as to freak people out. I think I have to tell ya'll about what I'm used to be. Ask any of my childhood friends, and this one word would usually popped out - NERD.

lols... looking back to at my 19-year-old life, i think i've changed a lot, even tho the sisa2 ke-nerdy-an is still there. You know what, I should've taken a pic of my academic achievements (there were over 25 piala n watnot), but I've thrown almost all of them away. menyemak bha, polah sakit mata memandang cuz I'm dumber now. lols... malas ma.

well, the stor goes like tis. last week, i went visiting zu's house with a couple of my ex-classmates. After talking to me for like 10 mins, they were like a lil shocked n went 'lebat... you've changed hoh?' (well, i went out with my chinese gang ma). i was a lil surprised too cuz the old me would talk like this.

"so... nick, congrats for your band 6 in muet."
"why, thanks." (and nicholas would grin. or smugged.)
"So i heard that you're taking five subjects for your coming stpm. You'll do well, no doubt about it."
"what, I almost got an A for my chemistry. if i'd argue for my 4 mark, i'll surely get that grade"(nicholas would grin some more. He's the most kiasu guy I've ever met)
"no worries, you can do it."

bla~ bla~ more talking about academics. But heck, no. this was the real conversation.well, almost.

"so... nick, congrats for your band 6 in muet."
"why, thanks." (and nick did smugged, as I've expected.)
"So how's your exam? stpm is around the corner rite?" (I already fet queasy and adjusted my seat. well, almost)
"what, I almost got an A for my chemistry. If i'd argue for my 4 marks, i'll surely get that grade". (he didnt grin. his smug deepened.)
"Oh."

then I turned around to mandy and started talking craps. and boys. lols.....
Not that I'm against academics though, no. (i love oganic chem n genetic engineering. ah, well~)
okay, it's not a huge change or watnot, but I've somehow (mandy realized, as the rest of the gang did) that I'm more confident in myself. (i remembered when I joined the debate team. luckily, thank God, i wasnt one of the speakers. I was just the info gatherer. wujudkah? and the time when I joined kuiz kesihatan peringkat sarawak in mukah. we won the peringkat saringan cuz it was in an enclosed hall. but when we successfully got thru the saringan, it's time to face the best of the bests. shoot, i was sitting, on the stage, facing hundreds of senior high-schoolers. and i didnt feel like myself. I was nervous like crazy. almst luput one. okayla... dapat juak naib peringkat negeri nak)

and they said I've became naughtier!! (in its broadest sense. lols)

alamak. it's 5 pm. mok tido lok. klak bercerita cintun gik. mata panda. 0.O lol

conclusion? I was a nerd. and maybe still am. hahha, wait, i havent explain why the heck am i being szchizophrenic. that will have to wait then. ~~~