I need a long time out.

That’s it. I need time apart from my family. I need my time to decide on how i live. I grew sick and tired of them for getting into my own space and giving orders around. I know my faults, alright, so let me realize my own mistakes. I dont care if it’s too late to realize them, but im not the kinda person to learn anything theoretically. I need my space to breathe man, so back off, alright?!
I’m depressed that i dont even have the freedom of doing what a 20-year-old person have. It’s like every second of my life is being monitored. I grew fuckingly, bloodily sick of this. Whenever i want to go out with my friends, they’ll try their best to stop me by inserting drippin’ sarcasm in between and thought i was stupid to not to get their intentions. Telling me that it’s a waste of time and it’s not productive. What am i, a cow? Who the fuck you think i am? I’m just a teenager, for goodness’ sake! WHO IS CURRENTLY IN A LOOONNGGG HOLIDAY! What’s this productive thing that you’re trying to say? Working? Studying? Heck, i dont even have money to buy all those architecture books! And you know my friends and they’re what to you, social failures? WTF, you know me LONG enough to have faith that i wont get myself into these kinds of people!
One more thing. They always unfailingly wonder why i’m always stuck in my room 24/7. You know why? Cuz thats the only place available where i can have all my space to myself. Enlightened? Tres bien. I may sound like a desperate kid trying her best to find her independence, but hey, i am. If i’ve given a wish right now – freedom is what im gonna say. Without thinking a second. Well, prolly it’ll take more than a second since i want other things too. Or i prolly will just say i wanna 10 more wishes.
Me going to sibu is the really BEST option that i have right now. Time apart from family. That taste sooo good, it reminds me of when i was studying back in UM for 10 months. Total heaven man. My life and no one else bothering my space. Going out and back at hostel till dawn... i missed those times. Im envious of my friends who are studying in semenanjung – they’re absolutely living a normal life of a young adult should.
I prolly sound immature here, but hey, i’m going thru that young adult phase. Perhaps my parents are too old to understand how it feels like to be a young adult.